Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Registered Sex Offender
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
The Match (not the kind you light after using the restroom)
Saturday, March 21, 2009
call
sorry for such a boring post...
Thursday, March 19, 2009
bloodletting for money
Grandma's Eulogy
Today we come together to honor the life of one of the strongest and most beautiful women I've ever known. She was a
wonderful daughter, sister, aunt, wife, mother, grandmother, great-grandmother and friend to everyone she came across. No one came away the same after knowing Grandma. Growing up, my mom used to use Grandma as the example of what kind of person made it into heaven; she would say that if Esther wasn't gonna get in, none of us were (and that's coming from a daughter-in-law).
We that are left behind can look back on the many happy memories she left us with. Whenever our family would get together, we would all laugh about the time that Denny and Tom put her on top of the refrigerator at her brothers suggestion or how she chased Grandpa around with the broom – or at least that is what he claimed she did. Each time we would tell these stories, she would get this face that was trying to show disapproval, but would have this mischievious grin sneaking through. Even as her mind was slowly fading, she provided us with many laughs as she lost some of her inhibitions. She would so bluntly say that one of her children had a big nose – even though they had inherited it from her. Or she would be quick to point out another's feet or their expanding tummy! Grandma was an amazing cook, but she was able to laugh at the time she ate the cat's food in a sandwich, the time she put double sugar in a rhubarb pie because she thought she forgot it (Andi still says it's the best she's ever tasted), or when she fed Denny and the girls stuffed shells made with Ricotta cheese that expired a year before. Last Christmas she thought that sparkling grape juice was whisky, calling it "the strong stuff"; but even when we tried to catch her off guard, she still would not tell us where Great-Grandpa’s still had been. Even when she was slowly fading away, she let us know her laughter hadn't left her when Andi asked her “Grandma, are you a Republican?!” and she broke into a smile. Anyone who knew her, knew better than to ask such a funny thing, because to grandma being a democrat and politically aware was as important as her strong Catholic faith.
Even though she never finished high school, education was very important for her children and grandchildren to succeed at. After spending time as a nanny at the funeral home in St. Marys, she enlisted in the U.S. Army at the height of WWII where she achieved the rank of Sargeant before marrying Benedict (Ben) Rettger. She raised four wonderful children while helping run Mt. Top Pop in Mt. Jewett. It was a rare evening not to hear Gram typing away at the typewriter long after everyone else went to bed.
She also was generous with everyone – no matter if she never met the person. While we were at the nursing home, we would try to guestimate how many funeral casseroles she put together in her life – even after she didn’t have her license, she would get someone to drive her to Smethport to give a casserole to someone who had lost a loved one. Once she was in a nursing home, she was always worried about Christmases and what she was getting everyone.
She was so strong that she was able to survive a massive heart attack in the 80s, bypass surgery in the 90s and the hardest things – losing her sweetheart of 51 years and son of 42 years. Without that determination, she would have been taken much sooner from us. We were so lucky to have her with us for 89 years.
When my grandfather passed away in 1996, she told us kids not to cry, because it would make grandpa sad if we cried. So instead of crying for her, let's try to remember the good times we had with grandma. After all, it was a funeral much like this one where we learned of how great-grandpa Cesa had blown himself up in the outhouse (and survived). It brought us many laughs and stories of Grandma will be much the same in the coming years. She will always be with us in our hearts, we will be reminded of her when we come across doublemint chewing gum (half a stick), pink lipstick, or tissues (all constants inside her purse); or when we see homemade popsicles, or those yellow rubber cleaning gloves!!
I’ll end this now with how I ended every conversation with her – I love you Grandma as far as my arms can reach, and I know you love me too.
on death
Long time no post..
Saturday, March 7, 2009
VA
Sunday, March 1, 2009
west coast home
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
bittersweet melody.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
before i lay me down to sleep...
more importantly is that in the afternoon she watched dirty dancing which i thought was a good choice. the funny part is that i was going for a bathroom break and as i walked down the hall and listened, i realized that inside over half of the rooms, dirty dancing was blaring...which leads me to believe that dirty dancing is a nursing home favorite.
this all brings me to the ultimate question: what will be the movie blaring throughout the nursing home when we are old. any votes??
back to the rush
we were in the ED finishing an admit of a drunk guy when the code pager went off...my intern courtney had the pager and has been hoping for a code for my sake (i've never been to a code and i really need to intubate someone as i didn't get that signed off on anesthesia even though i did it...and i refuse to do anesthesia again to get a stupid signature)...so the code pager went off and 3 of us went running from the ED to the top floor where the code was. we got there and i just saw lots of blood. it wasn't a real code, that's all i can say, but it sure got the adrenaline running, so when my resident told me to go to bed, i knew that wouldn't be happening. so i figured i would blog, then try to get some sleep before i get another admit. the ED was dead all day, but now it's jumping. (ps. i spotted 2 new hot male nurses tonight so i might just go hang out down there!!)
now for more on my trip home. i got to see family and friends which was nice. most of all i got to be with my grandma. she slept a lot so i just sat at her bedside all day friday and studied, then sat and held her hand sabbath as she slept. she recognized me and whispered my name, let me brush her teeth once, and i even got her to laugh. she's slipping away and likely won't be alive a month from now, so those small victories were worth 14 hours of driving (some of which were in white out conditions and slippery roads). please just keep my grandma and my family in your prayers. we know that her time has come and for her sake we want her to pass peacefully, but there's also this selfishness that wants her in our lives still.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Home Sweet Home
Monday, February 16, 2009
digging into the dregs
Friday, February 13, 2009
lost toes and lives
V-day
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
el nino?
current temp in kettering 55, loma linda 52. overnight low in kettering 52, loma 43. now who's laughing?? that's right - i'm going for brisk runs outside and sunbathing! loma linda natives are getting out their long johns!
i love el nino! :)
in other news, i am on call tonight...my first patient had a diabetic foot ulcer - i don't think this is breaking HIPAA, but to be careful i won't say too much. it's my first problem of this type and it's quite intrigueing in a smelly, made me throw up in my mouth a little sort of way. my senior just came into the doctors lounge and so i had to pull up uptodate real quick and pretend i was researching diabetic foot ulcers!
which leads me to my team - they are great. i have an attending (who is 8 years older than me i found out today), a senior (age 30), an intern (age 30-who spent over an hour this morning teaching me to read EKGs), and an ER resident (age 28), plus the 4th year and me. i'm the baby of course! this was the topic of convo over the pizza our attending brought us for dinner, that and strokes, diabetic foot ulcers, and vaginal bleeding. do we know how to have fun or what?